Summertime Blues

So I would never complain about having the summer off for many obvious reasons. I do sincerely love having the time off, but for some reason this year I am feeling overwhelmed by part of what "having the summer off" entails. I know, some of you are scratching your head right now and contemplating shutting this site down. Indulge me as I try to explain...

Having the summer off means that now I have to actually formulate my to-do list and complete the work. Last summer I took on too much at the beginning of the summer and felt as though I was going to have a breakdown the first week of break. (on the bright side, I did get a LOT done) This year, I decided I wasn't going to do that to myself. So I have approached the beginning of my vacation with thoughts of all the work I need to do swirling around in my head along with much anxiety about when and how it is going to get done.

During the school year, I can always use the excuse that I don't have the time or energy to do the bigger projects around the house. But once "vacation" comes around, no excuses. That is why I feel as though the summertime blues have hit me. No motivation and a long to-do list makes me uncomfortable. A part of me says I have all summer to do it, but let's be real people, I don't work that way. My Type A personality thinks all of this stuff should have been done yesterday. Are you getting to the source of my self-inflicted anxiety yet? Maybe next summer I will just do myself a favor and schedule some time with a therapist.